Hi . I’m new here. I’ve been feeling very low just lately and found this site while looking for help.
My partner has been getting worse with his mobility over the last 3 years and now is mostly in a wheelchair. He has all the associated problems of having MS and is not the same man mentally, who I married.
He reached retirement age last year and this has brought a number of feelings to the fore .
We had plans to sell up and go travelling. I lived for my holidays, camping and hiking, being in nature and exploring new places. I now feel totally broken, I’ve no interest in anything anymore. To add to the problems if him getting Ms 3 years ago, in the same year I lost my mum and had to give up my job . We hate the house and area we live in (and are now stuck in). We have had some work done to make the house more comfortable for him , but it just makes me feel depressed looking at all the aids that have been put in place. I know this sounds selfish but I feel like I have a huge weight pressing down on me all the time. He has a hobby that keeps him busy and he spends most of his time doing it. I have just lost interest in life. I call myself a “Martha” from the Handmaid’s Tale. My family live far away and I have lost touch with friends. We have nobody other than the two of us. Sorry about the moaning on my first post but I’m feeling very lost.
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